time pass soooo fast.. 1 mth more going to end 2010 and new yr coming up..

my feeling nw is mix. i'm happy when new yr come coz is a time to gather up wif all cousins chat n ply. but another way i'm scare.. coz i dun like my relative keep asking me have i find a job yet all tis.

can say i understand how beeleng feel.. no wonder she dun wan to come my house during new yr time to meet wif those relative.. i dunno how to explain y i dun feel like working.

of coz i know everyone have to work if not no money to spend n i also have to give my mom money to spend. but i jus dun feel like working coz the job i find always not suitable for me or maybe u can say tat i didn bear wif the scolding all tis. i hate the boss tat treat me not nice or jus a small mistake will scold me all tis.

i know not all boss tat r really nice. actually i have meet 1 nice boss when i work in RSH. i'm very happy working wif them jus tat i quitted coz i start schooling n kind of sick to sales. so i have plan to have a small business to do sales as is my 1st job n quite ok wif it.

but..... tis plan seem very diff n hard for me. haiz... anw, maybe nw i'm free i can go learn sth tat i wanna to learn. but i dunno how to find it. =.=

actually i'm a stubborn person la. ppl keep force or tell me to do wat i dun like i will do other way. my thinking is like, "y cant i dun work?" "y cant i have a relax life?" "y i have to be the same as those ppl working everyday?" i know if i say tis many ppl will come say me or disagree wif me.

ok if wan me to find a job n work.. but i have no idea wat to work as.. coz i have try to work but is all not suitable for me. my fren even tell me i dun have to work la jus stay home can le be taitai.. who dun wan sia.. i also wan tis life. i dun worry for money coz i didn spend so much or often.

for some ppl they like shopping keep spend, tat y they cant dun work. some is planning for future, married. but i'm kind of struck? maybe i do things step by step ba..

last yr n tis yr i have been feeling so stress n sudden. hope next yr 2011 will be a better yr for me.. =)